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I’ve been feeling like time is just whooshing by. How can it be late September already? I came to Zen 15 years ago in response to that same sensation. Awareness practice really helped time feel normal–for a while.

For a few weeks now that speeding sensation causes me to feel a little panicky and cranky. It just feels like I’m on a roller coaster ride and it’s all I can do to hold on–much less experience anything.

It’s that out of control feeling. And I sure don’t want to actually feel it–so I turn to anger, which works so much better. But today my practice intensifier is to do the 3 Breaths Practice once an hour. I have a vibrating alarm set on my phone, and I’m also going to try to remember to do it as often as I can–especially when I feel that irritation come up. And then I’m going to say, “What is this?”

To get just a little closer to the actual thing I’m feeling. Even if it isn’t what I expect!