zenjones

I need my distractions. Need them. It looks like if I don’t have them I invent new things, and the new things are too distracting, they don’t fit. I’ve refined my distractions to work nicely with my life, protecting me from awake-ness while still allowing me to function.

So in a fit of pique, I cheated. I read during breakfast this morning, and then I just read while I was drying my hair. These were two things I gave up for Practice Period. So I am noticing my “bad zen student!” thoughts, and my justifying thoughts (“I need them!).

Today I will notice escapes.