zenjones

I was going along just fine (don’t all my stories start that way?) when a friend compared the difficult situation she was going through with one I endured a few years ago.

I immediately got a little nauseous and my brain tried to change the subject. But then I remembered: say yes to everything. So I stayed there with the discomfort, I kept calling my mind back to that time. I reaized I can only remember vague parts of that horrible day…

Update: I talked to my zen teacher and he suggested I talk to someone who was there that day and see if they could tell me what they remember. Oh, yes, thank you, Ezra. That’s exactly what I want to do, rehash one of the most humiliating days of my life. Well, maybe not rehash, since I never hashed it in the first place.