{"id":54,"date":"2008-09-19T20:54:08","date_gmt":"2008-09-20T04:54:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/blogs?p=54"},"modified":"2008-09-19T20:54:08","modified_gmt":"2008-09-20T04:54:08","slug":"oh-that-martyrish-feeling","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/?p=54","title":{"rendered":"Oh, that martyrish feeling."},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/zenjones.canyonlink.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2008\/09\/76842277.jpg\" title=\"76842277.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" vspace=\"4\" align=\"left\" src=\"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/gwp-content\/uploads\/2008\/09\/76842277.thumbnail.jpg\" hspace=\"4\" alt=\"76842277.jpg\" title=\"76842277.jpg\" \/><\/a><span style=\"font-weight: normal; font-size: 8pt; font-family: Arial\"><br \/>\n<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Feeling sorry for myself. It&#8217;s one of my things. It annoys me no end and it&#8217;s lead to some unwise decisions.<\/p>\n<p>So today I will just notice it. Thanks to PP, I&#8217;ve got a little more distance. I can say, &#8220;It is feeling sorry for itself.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>So a couple people asked me for help&#8230; Actually I think I offered. So am I setting myself up for martyrdom?<\/p>\n<p>No, don&#8217;t intellectualize. Just notice thoughts and feelings.<\/p>\n<p>This morning I got angry at the computer, and, by extension, my husband. I am dependent on him for my tech needs. He&#8217;s really good at it&#8211;it&#8217;s such a luxury to have an expert system administrator&#8230;for example, I&#8217;m writing this on a bus in Chinatown! But I get so angry when tech things don&#8217;t work. What is the fear? This morning I was getting ready for a meeting, and it took longer than I&#8217;d planned to print out my notes. So I might be late for the meeting, and then the people I&#8217;m meeting with will notice that I&#8217;m incmpetent. Oh, it must be that worthless fear.<\/p>\n<p>Again.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Feeling sorry for myself. It&#8217;s one of my things. It annoys me no end and it&#8217;s lead to some unwise decisions. So today I will just notice it. Thanks to PP, I&#8217;ve got a little more distance. I can say, &#8220;It is feeling sorry for itself.&#8221; So a couple people asked me for help&#8230; Actually [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-54","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/54","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=54"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/54\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=54"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=54"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=54"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}