{"id":49,"date":"2008-09-15T16:17:38","date_gmt":"2008-09-16T00:17:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net?p=49"},"modified":"2008-09-15T16:17:38","modified_gmt":"2008-09-16T00:17:38","slug":"another-monday-another-non-manifestation-of-anger-day","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/?p=49","title":{"rendered":"Another Monday. Another Non-manifestation of Anger Day."},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Sand<\/a>Good lessons lately in my sneaky expectations.\u00c2\u00a0<\/p>\n

I recently quit my job at AAA. I gave them two weeks notice, they asked me to stay nine months, we settled on three months. So I’ve been off work for two weeks.<\/p>\n

While\u00c2\u00a0 I was still working, I tried to notice when I was being in the future\u00e2\u20ac\u201dafter I was done with my work at AAA\u00e2\u20ac\u201dinstead of being present. It seemed like I was doing pretty well, catching myself occasionally, but for the most part not doing too much of what I call “Waiting for Godot.”<\/p>\n

Hah! These last two weeks of not working have made it very clear to me that I had large, lumpy piles of expectations! Mostly that I would be all peaceful and have long chunks of time to meditate and be calm and cool and relaxed. And I have had some of those things. But any time I am not having long peaceful chunks of time, I am walking around with thoughts like, “This is just not right!” A couple temper tantrums, a few husband-blamings, and bout of jaw clenching, and I finally got it.<\/p>\n

Oh, and a lot of those expectations? They were around\u00c2\u00a0Practice Period. I was going to be even more<\/em> peaceful. Instead, I “had” to go to some really nice parties, which I couldn’t really enjoy because I was supposed to be somewhere doing more peaceful things. Meditating and stuff. And writing in my Practice Period blog, which was on my Practice Period contract. Which I totally reneged on the first two days.<\/p>\n

So today I didn’t manifest anger. But I noticed it!<\/p>\n

What was on your Practice Period menu today?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Good lessons lately in my sneaky expectations.\u00c2\u00a0 I recently quit my job at AAA. I gave them two weeks notice, they asked me to stay nine months, we settled on three months. So I’ve been off work for two weeks. While\u00c2\u00a0 I was still working, I tried to notice when I was being in the […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-49","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/49","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=49"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/49\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=49"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=49"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=49"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}