{"id":180,"date":"2009-10-06T19:27:32","date_gmt":"2009-10-07T03:27:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/?p=180"},"modified":"2009-10-06T19:27:32","modified_gmt":"2009-10-07T03:27:32","slug":"blaming","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/?p=180","title":{"rendered":"Blaming"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-182\" title=\"blame\" src=\"\/wp-content\/uploads\/2009\/10\/blame-150x150.jpg\" alt=\"blame\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" \/>Perfect day to notice how I blame others. It was pretty comical, really. Something unexpected would happen, there&#8217;d be a miscommunication, I&#8217;d make a mistake, and zhoop! I&#8217;d be blaming the nearest warm body.<\/p>\n<p>But today, having it be my practice period intensification, I was aware of it most of the times I did it. So I noticed that even after I noticed it, and said, Look what you are doing, I kept coming back and trying to blame someone else for the same event, the same thing I&#8217;d just caught myself doing minutes ago.<\/p>\n<p>I also noticed that I want to be angry; I think I crave that juicy self-righteous sensation. It distracts me from feelings of unworthiness (as does blame). I think I&#8217;m going to make my concentration tomorrow be to notice those feelings of unworthiness. I don&#8217;t hold out a lot of hope that I will; I&#8217;m too fast on the draw of my gun of distraction.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Perfect day to notice how I blame others. It was pretty comical, really. Something unexpected would happen, there&#8217;d be a miscommunication, I&#8217;d make a mistake, and zhoop! I&#8217;d be blaming the nearest warm body. But today, having it be my practice period intensification, I was aware of it most of the times I did it. [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2,6,9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-180","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-anger","category-judgement","category-practice-period"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/180","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=180"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/180\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=180"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=180"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=180"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}