{"id":14,"date":"2007-09-16T11:37:07","date_gmt":"2007-09-16T19:37:07","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net?p=14"},"modified":"2007-09-16T11:37:07","modified_gmt":"2007-09-16T19:37:07","slug":"to-what-am-i-attached-right-now","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/?p=14","title":{"rendered":"&#8220;To what am I attached right now?&#8221;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/zenjones.canyonlink.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2007\/09\/sticky.jpg\" title=\"sticky.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" align=\"right\" src=\"\/wp-content\/uploads\/2007\/09\/sticky.thumbnail.jpg\" hspace=\"4\" alt=\"sticky.jpg\" title=\"sticky.jpg\" \/><\/a>Right now? I&#8217;m attached to the schedule I&#8217;ve created. I&#8217;m attached to not accomplishing it, to failing. In order to hold off the realization that I&#8217;m going to fail, I&#8217;m very attached to planning. <em>Okay,\u00c3\u201a if I don&#8217;t worry about practice period and\u00c3\u201a if i put off that bike ride with my husband and just stay right here and work&#8230; <\/em>Hmmm. Maybe I&#8217;m attached to work as evidence that I am valuable.<\/p>\n<p>Wow. That thought allowed me to take a deep old breath. I like this practice period.<\/p>\n<p>Last Monday, when he was talking about p.p. (as Ellen calls it), Ezra said that one of the things we might notice was &#8220;moments of simple delight.&#8221; I love that phrase.<\/p>\n<p>I think I&#8217;m attached to that concept.<\/p>\n<p>Yesterday, &#8220;notice blaming&#8221; was my wake up call. I set my Outlook program to remind me every half hour, and, interestingly enough, there was actually one time when it binged on <em>when I wasn&#8217;t blaming anyone!<\/em> However, when I noticed myself blaming my husband for my crankiness, or blaming my husband for my lateness, or, wait a minute, maybe it <em>is<\/em> his fault! No, no. I tried to also notice if I was then blaming myself for blaming. What a convoluted concept.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Right now? I&#8217;m attached to the schedule I&#8217;ve created. I&#8217;m attached to not accomplishing it, to failing. In order to hold off the realization that I&#8217;m going to fail, I&#8217;m very attached to planning. Okay,\u00c3\u201a if I don&#8217;t worry about practice period and\u00c3\u201a if i put off that bike ride with my husband and just [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-14","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=14"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=14"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=14"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=14"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}