{"id":127,"date":"2009-08-11T05:17:15","date_gmt":"2009-08-11T13:17:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/?p=127"},"modified":"2009-08-11T05:17:15","modified_gmt":"2009-08-11T13:17:15","slug":"sunday-sitting-cd-talk-on-forgiveness","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/?p=127","title":{"rendered":"Sunday sitting CD talk on Forgiveness"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-thumbnail wp-image-129 alignleft\" title=\"smilingbuddha\" src=\"\/wp-content\/uploads\/2009\/08\/smilingbuddha-150x150.jpg\" alt=\"smilingbuddha\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" \/>Struggle struggle struggle with that Being Kindness Meditation and my distaste for those imaginary feelings, for pretending, for what seems to me to be the mainstream religions&#8217; reliance on &#8220;Do what I say. I know best. I talk to god.&#8221; Sit down on my cushion with an interior grumble. Realize that I&#8217;m happy to be on my cushion with Susan, Ellen, and Carol there on their cushions\/chairs.<\/p>\n<p>But when I started the CD of Ezra&#8217;s talk (from 2004) on forgiveness, and I heard his voice, my heart just melted. How could I be mad at this teacher? He was so smart and accepting. I smiled inside. Maybe on the outside I had one of those little Buddha statue smiles.<\/p>\n<p>And then Ezra asked us all to picture a person we had resentment for. I started to go to my usual suspect (a man I knew 20 years ago&#8211;pretty safe!) when suddenly a woman&#8217;s face zoomed into view and I realized that I&#8217;d been struggling with my resentment for this person for weeks. It had just been in the background, hiding behind the main scenery, due to over-painfulness.<\/p>\n<p>So I kept her in mind as I listened to Ezra. And I was aware of this sensation of something pushing against my face, my nose, my mouth, and my chest, every time I thought of her. And right then, Ezra said, &#8220;Be aware of the wall you have up.&#8221; That&#8217;s it! It was a wall.<\/p>\n<p>He&#8217;s so smart.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Struggle struggle struggle with that Being Kindness Meditation and my distaste for those imaginary feelings, for pretending, for what seems to me to be the mainstream religions&#8217; reliance on &#8220;Do what I say. I know best. I talk to god.&#8221; Sit down on my cushion with an interior grumble. Realize that I&#8217;m happy to be [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-127","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-perseverance"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/127","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=127"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/127\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=127"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=127"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zenjones.bravoecho.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=127"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}